Tuesday, November 12, 2013

My Five Year Milestone... Hope

Five years ago today, my grandmother Hope passed away.  I miss her dearly.  I am truly grateful that I had a chance to tell her how much I loved her.  She is my inspiration.  It was at her death that I knew I needed to make some changes in my life.  I made a five and seven year plan.  Today brings me to the completion of my five year goal and I am on my own and solely independent.  I didn’t expect to be without my kids nor did I expect five years ago to be living in Sacramento today.  Ultimately, I succeeded.   Now I am on the brink of the last 18 months of my seven year plan.  As I prepare to close out 2013 to enter into 2014, I am proud of the obstacles I have overcome and the wisdom I have gain.  I am eternally grateful for those who have been my support especially those who have given their lifelong commitment to the service of God’s kingdom.  I would not be here without them.  No one I have met along the way, including those who are no longer in my life and those who like me less, have been without purpose in my life.  I live a life of wealth because of each individual I have encountered on this journey. 

Now begins the next phase of my life with intense ferociousness as I continue on this grand endeavor.  I must say that fear has subsided and courage abounds.  Regardless of any position I take, I am no one, I am nothing, I can do nothing and be nothing without the love and grace of my Savior.  My faith and hope is in Him alone.

For those who have consistently told me in private how they have been inspired by me, look forward to my messages, have sought my counsel, and so forth, and especially for those who have shared their tears with me, you are my ONLY reason I make my life so transparently public, against the constant advice of others.  As I have survived and conquered for the past 25 years, I have had the very constant prayer of pleading with God for my life not to be in vain.  My trials and tribulations, my conquests and successes have allowed me to pour into your lives.  Thank you for pouring into mine.  As God continues to bless me with an abundance of souls in my life to love, I will continue to encourage you and love you as long as there is breath in my lungs. 

May the love, joy and peace of God richly abound in your soul and of those around you.